Tremor syndrome

I had a resident working with me a couple of years ago. She was good natured, intelligent, and hard-working, I had never had occasion to scold her for any reason. But she had a funny habit. Her hands would tremble rhythmically while operating if she sensed my presence nearby, and the tremors would go away as soon as I went away. No degree of sweet talk or reassurance would cure her, I don't know where she practices now, I would like to visit her once and see if I still have the same effect on her. Recently I found the same phenomenon in two of my residents, both girls-One of them is already qualified, and the other will qualify in six months. I called the qualified one after the operation was over and asked her if she had essential tremors. She said she did not. Then I asked her if she had tremors only if I was observing. She smiled and said it was so, Then I asked the other one, and she said the same thing. This was not a good sign. I seemed to be a monster, which I knew I wasn't. A week later, I found the second one was having similar tremors again. She knew I was in the OT, but not hear her. she was being assisted by my Associate professor, who was much more critical and outspoken than me, perhaps I was not the factor causative. To confirm this, [declared loudly that I was going away, Then I quietly instructed a houseman to inform me if her tremors disappeared after I went away-Ten minutes later he came out and told me the tremors had persisted. So either she had essential tremors, or any boss gave her tremors, not me alone. Now I need to observe her in action when both me and my Associate Professor are away, If she has tremors, those are essential tremors. If she doesn’t, she needs behavioral therapy, not us.

Me and my strictness

Many people have told me that I have a reputation of being very strict. Well, I admit I am as strict with myself as I am with anyone else who works as my junior. I have not been unreasonable at any time, nor have I insisted I am right when I have been proved wrong. Strictness is for maintaining discipline where it is necessary, as in patient care, If the rules are laid down and clear to everyone, there is no confusion about what is to be done at any time in any situation. That gives stability to the environment. If there is need to do otherwise, and the need is genuine, I would not insist it be done as I say. If need be, I would do it myself, rather than permit some people I like to do as they please, and make some others I do not like to do the dirty work. That generates corruption of sorts. That divides people into favored and un-favored, into happy and dissatisfied. I am strict, but that is no reason for anyone to be afraid of me, because it is not my nature to be whimsical and trouble anyone only because I want to. If one does one's own job, I would be the first person to praise him, and the last person to think ill of him, I am writing this because it never occurred to me that my principle-centered life would be the subject of intense dislike by someone. Someone sent hate-mail to the institute's contact address, referring to me as the ''so-called honorable Dr. Parulekar, and wrote a few things that had happened in the department as a result of policy developed by all staff members, and not by me as the Head. I am upset because that someone cannot understand that we are different from many other places where persons in position of power do what they please, whether it is in the rule book or not. I am more upset because I traced the origin of the mail electronically and found that it was actually sent by a Professor and Head of another department. I had thought that Person was ok, but now I know different. I replied to the hate mail as follows. "I am aware of your real identity, and the exact location of the server from where you this mail. I want you to note that in my department all activity is as per policy laid down by all staff members, and not as I please. I don't hold any grudge against you for writing what you have written about me, I can see you need help, and suggest you read the following book, which I recommend to people like you who need help. ‘Seven Habits of Highly Effective People, by Stephen Covey’. You will be a better person if you read this book and understand it.”